Sure, it is natural to get rejected, and there goes the quote “what goes around, comes around.” But it sucks that it does happen, especially if one is simply being friendly.

I had this short set of conversations with a college mate whom I only got to be acquainted a  term before she graduated. All I can say is that she definitely looks like a geek, and it turned out… she is. But that’s the fun part: we had this fun time talking about our favorite music and TV shows which we have in common. Everything seems to be going well, even if getting close within a term seems like a long shot, until I finally asked for her phone number.

“My boyfriend wouldn’t allow me to give it to you. Sorry,” she said.

I was fine with it, really… only for me to realize that it was our last conversation ever. I cannot even see a single reply of my offline messages. I don’t know what caused the clusterfuck: maybe her boyfriend noticed that we were getting close, or maybe the girl may have realized that I was “trying too hard” to being sociable and all. Overall, I’m just assuming yet again.

“Trying is having the intention to fail.” 
- Sydney Fife (Jason Segel), I Love You Man 

With Sydney Fife’s quote about trying, it etched in my mind, and I really… do my best to avoid telling “I will try.” But now… well, I should just take a break if I’m trying too much without me realizing it.

As for that acquaintance, well, donning my awesome checkered top, black pants and Zoo York kicks, I’d like to get this thing out of my chance, and it’s fueled with bitterness:

Geeky College Acquaintance,

If only I befriended you earlier, we might have been good friends by now. But then again, you could have not turned me down when I already approached you. I could still be open for another conversation or whatever though, but for now, I just feel sorry for you.

You might think, “Bitter much?” Yeah. I’m that kind of guy. But I will be all right.

All the best in the world to you, almost-friend.

DW

With the following of to-do’s in my planner the past few weeks, it’s like I was going back to that old person who I’d like to call a “creature of habit”. And there goes the thing about chores: chores suck. And sometimes, there are habits that could hurt other aspects of your life or relationships.

(sigh)

I am still keeping up the schedule though, but then again, I should live up more. There’s always a good story somewhere out there. I know it.

When we were younger, almost everything involves fist fights and throwing of things with one another. It seems like a nightmare to some, but I was that of a hot-headed kid and Younger Brother would usually retaliate. But now, everything involves less fists and household weapons, and more laughs and chit-chat about pop culture and our college lives.

After-4pm classes, we would meet a few minutes after, and then go home together. With after-6pm classes, we would grab a bite or a plateful of fast food and kill the rush hour, and then commute at 7pm. And in between commutes, window shopping, even some of those How I Met Your Mother watching time, I got to know more about my brother, and I hope he got to know more about me too.

YB: What do you think about Kate Beckinsale³?
DW: She’s pretty.
YB: More like… HOT.
DW: MILF.
YB: Definitely a MILF. 

College, being the stress machine that it is, may be the one who helped me to be close with Younger Brother, among the family members. The more stress college dishes out, the more it indirectly pushed me to find a different breather from all of the booze, hobbies, friends or maybe even blogging. And with this “better” relationship with Younger Brother, it is definitely “de-stressing”.

Well, except when we would talk the awfully-high escalator at the Shangri-La Mall in Mandaluyong:

YB: Come on, kuya¹. Face your fears!
DW: FUCK YOU. I HATE LOOKING DOWN.
YB: Hey, look. There’s an ice cream store. 
DW: Where? (looks down) DAMN IT. DON’T  MAKE ME EVEN.

And speaking of family, a few questions: Do you have a younger brother/siser? How are you and him/her? Tell me about it on the comments section.

Footnotes:
¹ – A Filipino term meaning “older brother”. And even if not related, it can be used as a sign of respect to an older person without hurting his age. This term can also be used by a girl to a cockblocking² a guy who likes her. (Urban Dictionary, 2006)
² – “To interfere with someone who is getting acquainted with, conversing with, or hooking up with a member of the opposite sex.” (Urban Dictionary, 2005)
³ – An English actress who had starring roles in the romantic comedy Serendipity and in the action-horror Underworld film series, among other films. (Wikipedia, 2012)”She is the ultimate MILF⁴.” (Younger Brother, personal conversation, 2012)
⁴ – Abbreviation of “Mother/Mom I‘d Like to Fuck”, for those who are gullible or innocent-minded. It was popularized in the American Pies films. But then again, who doesn’t know this? (Wikipedia, 2011)

Those are the lines I might tell you if you were to ask me to describe Dave Grohl in one sentence. And some of you might wonder, “who is Dave Grohl?” 

Dave Grohl, Krist Novoselic, and Kurt Cobain of Nirvana. Photo: Retna.

Well, I can tell you all day about how he was the fifth and most well-known drummer of Nirvana (with Kurt Cobain on vocals/guitar and Krist Novoselic on bass), and that he was one-third of the force that made Nevermind, which kicked Michael Jackson’s Bad album out of the top of the charts and changed rock music and music overall in the 1990s. I can tell you that the drum intro on the classic song “Smells Like Teen Spirit”… that’s Dave Grohl channeling a punk monster version of John Bonham (Led Zeppelin).

I can tell you that those breakthrough by the band propelled them to a whirlwind of touring, fame, money, blessings and controversies… which tragically ended by Kurt’s suicide in 1994 that lead to the end of Nirvana. And then I can tell you that he was one of the friends that was really affected by the said tragedy, and that lead to his long break from music for some soul-searching.

I can tell you day that after that soul-searching, with the help of a postcard that would motivate him to finally shrug of the funk, he finally started moving on from the tragedy and recorded all of his “secret” demos he has acquired all over the years of being in Nirvana, which became the first album and birth of American alternative rock band Foo Fighters. He was still involved in the drum aspect of the songs, but now he is the primary songwriter, vocalist and rhythm guitarist.

The current Foo Fighters lineup: Nate Mendel, Chris Shiflett, Dave Grohl, Taylor Hawkins and Pat Smear. Photo: Dean Chalkley/NME.

I can tell you that despite of the tragedy, he was able to move on, and with that, he found success on his own band, Foo Fighters. With the combined talents of drummer Taylor Hawkins, guitarists Chris Shiflett and Pat Smear, and bassist Nate Mendel, they have went on bag multiple Grammy nominations and victories, among other awards, for their memorable music videos, and their fun, moving rock singles and albums made of melody and dissonance.

Dave Grohl being the life of the party of the Foo Fighters' Milton Keynes Bowl, UK gig in 2011. Photo: Danny North/NME.

I can also tell you that the Foo Fighters have acquired a massive following worldwide, and they have went on from selling out small clubs to selling out stadiums all over the world, and still going back to those small clubs every once in a while. And their rock shows nowadays go up to 3 hours, which is so impressive even if they are in their early 40s already. Those 3-hour rock shows definitely put the younger and even bands of their own level to shame.

Aside from all of those things, and also from Dave Grohl being on such projects like Them Crooked Vultures (Grohl on drums, Josh Homme of Queens of the Stone Age/Kyuss on vocals and guitars, and John Paul Jones of Led Zeppelin on bass/keyboard/whatever-musical-instrument-you-can-think-of), his collaborations with Paul McCartney of The Beatles, Tenacious D, Slash, among other famous people… despite of all of those things, his fans (some of them whom I were able to talk to) have been telling how wonderful and how approachable he is in real life, and that he is still that simple-looking guy who really loves music, (especially 80s hardcore punk), a warm hug, a fried chicken, some champagne, or just a cold beer, and he is “just fortunate enough” to making a living out of playing music.

And my appreciation of the guy went a long way, for I was just a casual fan of the Foo Fighters in 2002. “All My Life” definitely became that key to the unlocking of my inner angry freak who goes wild to rock music, but it was only when I first heard “The Pretender” that really got me into listening to all of their albums. That song not only became my favorite song of all time, that song made the Foo Fighters my favorite band of all time.

And during my shitty first half of 2010 where everyone seems far away from me (and I take the blame because I was such a total bastard), with Foo Fighters’ In Your Honor double album on the loop, I got acquainted with all the Foos interviews and magazine scans I can get my hands on the Web. And with “Times Like These”, “Best of You”, “Everlong”, “Another Round”, “Walk” and “The Pretender” leading the pack of my favorite Foo Fighters songs, the more I got to know Dave Grohl through the interviews and fan encounter stories, the more I realize the ultimate role model that I have been looking for, and the more serious my want for pursuing music endeavors became (and music has been my frustration for so long now). And cheesy as it may seem on paper, but like a thunder god, he definitely rocked the path I walk through, but also like a guardian angel, but he definitely saved my life and changed it forever.

But wait a minute… about that pack of favorite Foo songs: do I even have a Foo Fighters song that I hate?

Dave: 2011's NME Godlike Genius. Photo: Dean Chalkley/NME.

If it were not for Dave Grohl, I might be somewhere out there, trying hard to look for an alternate happy though, which may seem so hard for that old me. Hell, if it were not for Dave Grohl, I would not be here writing this lengthy, flowery post dedicated to him. I’m really glad that I got into this whole Foo Fighters fandom and into the real bringer of the thunder. Oh, how I wish I can share the same nickname.

Here is to 43 years of Dave Grohl living on planet Earth, and here is to 43 more years to the nicest guy in rock music ever. Belated happy birthday, David Eric Grohl! I wish him all that his nice and best in the world!

And oh, I got the photos from NME’s 30 Favourite Photos of Dave Grohl. All of the credits are to them except noted.

Environmental Factors in Design class… the chairs face a mirror wall where they can see through the other class which is a massive green room for chroma and 3D needs. It’s like the green room has this aquarium called our room, and our room’s aquarium theirs.

Aside from one of my ex-classmates in my first Biz class and one batchmate that I already saw from my first year college, I don’t know anyone at all in the class. This is one of the dilemmas of me being an irregular, of me getting delayed because of too many class failures the past several terms – getting along with new people without knowing their interests first. But that’s where socializing comes to play, which is challenging, thrilling.

And the class finally begun when the professor noticed there are 10 people in the room already. He introduced the course to us in a lively manner, which may have went along with his, um, “unique” look – royal blue long sleeved buttoned polo, cream pants, black socks and dark brown shoes. He would go a bit out of the class introduction for a few times, discussing environmental and social issues that has happened and that is happening right now.

The professor o kind of looks like a darker-skinned Billycoy. Well, that’s what I think even if he told me he’s not that fair-skinned either.

As his introduction progresses, so is my interest in the subject while I was taking notes and listing out to-do’s on my planner. This class may not be bad at all since he speaks as well as how he dresses. And about the classmates.: I’d worry about “mingling” with them later. At that time, I just don’t see something interesting in at least one of them… yet.

And then this girl with reddish hair appeared on the open door (yeah, the room’s door was open all along) during the lecture. “Come in,” the professor said. She looks… kind of familiar. Maybe she owned a blog that I have read or maybe commented… I don’t know, really.

But one thing that I do know is that she is really cute, and she definitely pulled off being a redhead.

In my place, there are a lot of people who want to dye their hair, and there are a lot of people who already dyed their hair. I think the common hair dye color that I’ve been seeing is brown… blonde-ish is kind of a trend, too. But then again, even if someone wants to dye his or her hair, unless he or she wants or doesn’t care if he or she will to look like a deeper level of jologs or jejemon, he or she should know that his or her skin color should complement the hair color.

Also, here’s the thing about me and girls: I love them. Yes, you should include the regular-looking ones on that list, but let me be honest: getting to talk with pretty girls is kick-ass. Most guys can agree with me on that one.

Oh, funny thing… I had a different perception about girls until I met my then-future best friend in high school. God, I miss my Buddy. (More on that later.)

And oh, did I already mentioned the redhead was cute? Oh yeah, I did. But here’s the catch: not that I’m interested on moving on from what I’d like to call “the best person in the world”, but I can tell that she’s already taken. She also looks younger than me (which I take offense of), so I kinda assumed that a guy of her age has already asked her out… consistently. Oh, there goes my analytical brain again.

Anyway, let me rush with the introduction and diagnostic crap… while I was listing down my selection of top 5 environmental issues on a scratch paper, aside from my imminent hanging-out with my professor/friend Dr. C., the one thing that’s bothering me at that moment was, “I want to talk to her. I really want to.”

Attraction? Yeah, you can call it that way. And honestly, there’s nothing wrong with such attraction (unless you want to “mess with her” without her consent). And only a zombie would not even feel something about someone attractive. 

Also, I’m all for doing my best to socialize with many people, but picking one standout from a crowd seems easy for me, and, of course, the person’s a standout! At first look, she seems interesting, so why not approach her maybe after class?

After class, when everyone except me already left, I waited for a minute or two to go out, and I suddenly acted casual, looking around the bulletins while listening to my recent favorite band The Answer. And then I noticed the redhead, all alone, waiting for the elevator.

The down arrow blinked, and we both went inside. During the elevator ride, I had this feeling that she had this feeling that I was about to approach her. Maybe that’s my paranoia talking, or maybe not.

And then this happened: “Everybody Loves Me” by the multi-talented Prince played on my 4-year old iPod Nano, and at the same time, I started to think about getting that Cornetto, which got me hungry for such tasty treat. Tell me who doesn’t like Cornetto? You? Oh, please.

The elevator finally touched ground floor, we both went out of the box, and we went on our ways. I think I saw her going to the lobby restrooms, while I checked out my bags and walked to the nearest Mini Stop, with my mouth and stomach wanting to scream, “I WANT A FUCKING CORNETTO!”

And there I was was, at the convenience store, shelled out 25.00 PHP for the treat, and there goes that checkered-top -wearing bastard walking back to school, enjoying the hell out of the vanilla cream.

And while I walked back to the building, I crossed paths with the redhead again, and this time making real eye contact. Oh, God… maybe she does have a vibe that I was going awkward over her and all while I just wanted to talk to her. But you know what: while I was having that tasty ice cream, I didn’t regret not talking to her.

And that’s the story of how I chose food over a girl that (recent) one time… and then regretted it after the snack time since I checked on my planner that I should go look for a groupmate for the said class. Hopefully I could ask her about that.

Don’t you ever tell me again that “I don’t need to blog”. Scheduled basis or randomly, I need to blog out my thoughts. Why? I’m a guy who has, like, 10 years of frustration deep down in my heart, and this blogging thing… it’s therapeutic. And this digging-up of frustration and dumping it to writing, I can say things I wanted to say to you that would definitely hurt your feelings. 

Listening to music is surely therapeutic, but I bet making use whatever I learned on music lessons can be more therapeutic. And guess what: I have never had any fucking proper music lessons when I was young. Not your fault; my fault. I should have took lessons even if you’re expecting better stuff and you’re burying my self-esteem. 

Anyway, again, don’t you ever tell me again that “I don’t need to blog”. Set aside you being my dad, who the fuck are you to tell me what I want to do? Are you fucking Gaddafi to tell me shit? Put your dictations up your ass.

You might not be able to read this now, and never (hopefully). But that’s the thing about blogging under an alias: you will never know the name, but the message will pinch your heart for a bit or more.

Regards,

DW

All of my friends are not going to be surprised with this one: my favorite album of 2011 was the Foo Fighters’ seventh studio album Wasting Light.

Around 2010, when the band’s recording of a then-new album became apparent through Dave Grohl’s Twitter updates and photos, I have never been more excited about an album release. I waited for so many months, and through all the teasing of secret shows in the US (so much for living in a Third World country), Foo Fighters FM, their garage tours, that awesome “White Limo” music video release on Valentine’s Day, the album title and cover announcements, their sudden move of streaming the album on their official website for free, and the fact that the album was fully recorded on analog tape, produced by Butch Vig (the same guy who produced Nirvana’s Nevermind 20 years ago), and feature Dave’s Nirvana bandmate Krist Novoselic, I celebrated my last term for school year 2010-2011 (OJT class was so awful, I tell you [will reminisce about that one later]) when I finally gave in and checked the Wasting Light online stream on the actual album release date.

I found out that I would really have to wait for another month after the album release date before I could really get my hands on the physical copy of Wasting Light, so I thought, “fuck it!” But frankly, you still have to give me credit though because I still waited before the album release date, and I still bought the album anyway. 

I had high hopes for the then-upcoming album of my favorite band of all time, and you know what… Wasting Light exceeded my expectations!

Click the play button to hear Foo Fighters’ “Bridge Burning”!

The first listen to the first track of the album “Bridge Burning”, chills went up my spine, and I was totally headbanging along with the aggressive punk rock instrumentals! The song seems to tell a lot of angst while discording someone from the past, so that adds up to the aggressive tone. It’s definitely one of my new favorite Foos songs ever, and a perfect way to kick off a Foo Fighters show.

“Rope” may be the most unusual Foo Fighters songs I have ever heard, but that makes the song more awesome! You can definitely hear Taylor Hawkin’s drumming prowess and the output of the new three-guitar arsenal composing of Dave Grohl, Chris Shiflett and Pat Smear (who just returned to the main line-up after touring with them since the Skin and Bones era). And the singing harmonies of Dave and Taylor is just too sweet to resist. And oh, the analog-recorded music video is a must-check head-trip (click on 480p)!

“Dear Rosemary” is a fantastic duet of Dave and Bob Mould of Hüsker Dü (one of Dave’s musical heroes), and the guitars definitely went up a notch when Bob added another guitar track on the song. But nothing can be more aggressive than the crazy-loud “White Limo”, which seems like “‘Wattershed’ on steroids”. That online-exclusive music video for “White Limo” is so funny, it reminded me of one of those shitty Video Production class projects I had in school!

“Arlandria”, “These Days”, “Back & Forth”, and “A Matter of Time” are examples of the classic Foo Fighters sound. Add up Dave’s impressive use of simple lines and their signature mix of melody and dissonance, and you get these four songs that are definite hits if they were to be singles (and Arlandria became an actual radio single last year). Meanwhile, “Miss the Misery” is a step-back from the classic Foo Fighters sound and their dive into hard rock. And they pulled it off. The band can not just do any genre imaginable, they can do it very well.

“I Should Have Known” may be one of the darkest, most personal Foo Fighters song ever… you can tell that Dave got some “deep” inspiration from that song (seemingly from Kurt Cobain and his best friend Jimmy’s deaths). Rami Jaffee’s keyboards and Jessy Greene’s violin added more black to the darker tone in there, too. And also, you can definitely hear the extra bass lines and accordion by Krist Novoselic (Dave’s bandmate in Nirvana), telling them apart from the also-impressive bass lines done by Nate Mendel.

Click the play button to hear Foo Fighters’ “Walk”!

And now we go to my favorite song of 2011: “Walk”. The way I felt and always feel whenever I listen to their previous hit “Best of You”, I can feel it with “Walk”… both are beautiful, cathartic, inspiring songs that I’d like to recommend to every person in need of comfort and motivation through music. From what I can interpret from the song’s lyrics… while I interpret them, the lines move me to places from the past, and they remind me that whatever shitty thing that happened to be from the past, you cannot give up now and ever.

I had a rough first part of 2010, a good last half of it, and a better run in 2011 comparing the previous year, but whenever I would have a shitty moment last year, I turn to “Walk”. 2011 was the year wherein I became “good at starting over every time that I return” and “learned to walk again”. And that’s the reason why it is my favorite song of 2011.

And funny thing is that the music video is too funny to be related to the cathartic sense of the song. Check it out! And also, check out the fan-directed music video for it… it’s kick-ass, too!

A lot of music journalists and fans told last year that Wasting Light may be the best Foo Fighters album since their breakthrough album The Colour and the Shape. Even non-fans became fans because of the latest album. For me, I like all of their albums, but Wasting Light was pretty unique among all of their previous records because the album’s theme of time, coming full circle (as evident on the songs and on the mini-Nirvana reunion), and second chances, which I always can relate on. It is also unique because of their analog production (which seems rare for mainstream musicians and singers these days), and their unique online marketing.

And most importantly, the album became an important part of my 2011 and my entire life. No auto-tuned shit or barely any other rock album can do that. Wasting Light is one of my reasons why love the Foo Fighters, and it is one good reason for you to check them out before going deep into their discography. Trust me: you will not regret checking them out.

If you haven’t checked out Wasting Light, you want to check the online stream to hear what you’ve been missing! And oh, if you’re new to the mighty Foo Fighters, I recommend you to check out the said link!

Speaking of “too excited”, I am (too) excited for tomorrow’s first day of classes since this term’s Fridays will be — wait for it — “Suit Up Fridays”.

I will be having one minor subject and one business-related class every Friday for the next three and a half months, and the latter requires formal suiting-up for attendance. So there you go: Suit Up Fridays.

And as you can see, I watch too much How I Met Your Mother. But come on… Barney Stinson is awesome.

And oh, I’ve got everything prepared: new coat, new black tie, and that old-yet-still-neat white buttoned shirt. I actually tried it wearing them a while ago, and oh… it just feels so good to be in a suit! There’s something with wearing those — it wraps in your skin just right (given that you chose the right suit for you), and that awesomeness in you suddenly goes up to the highest notches… it’s like you can do anything with grace and power!

Actually, I’m still wearing it while I’m typing this. I want to take a picture, but somebody else’s using the camera…

Although I’d like to think that most of the things I bought out of my earnings were worth keeping (especially that black leather Chuck Taylor x Metallica’s Black Album), and most of the food I spent on were fantastic, looking back at it now … it was just frustrating as hell. I just have to stop spending too much, so I started earning per 1 peso, a few 5s and 10s and put all of them together in this Undertaker coin bank (which is basically a tubed coin bank with a photo of the WWE’s “Lord of Darkness” in his power stand with some purple and black background, staring menacingly like he could almost scream “KEEP EARNING, YOU SKINNY ASS” to me). I thought it was effective at first since I earned A LOT of 1s, but after checking the ‘Taker coin bank during one of the holidays , I didn’t even reach 4 digits. Another disappointment… like, seriously, it made my Christmas time a bit colder.

And then Larry, a friend I first met on Tumblr that I was able to meet in person once at the first Paramore concert in Manila (I might go back to that one later), gave me this tip of earning any amount of 5 to 10 PhP every single day. I started when 2011 actually started, and the first few months went on a rough start since I kept spending on school stuff and food. Then it went to the point of not using any of those 5s and 10s I have earned through out the day, and just more of the money bills instead. It turns out that in just a few months, I passed the PhP 1,500 line. “Insane,” I say.

But even though I wanted to spend it all again on something, I just kept earning more 5s and 10s, and I would just get a 25 or so if I ran out of smaller bills. I already passed more than 2,500 now, and add up the larger bills I earned from selling some of my stuff and a bit of freelance work, and I was able to open up a new bank account.

The lesson in this story? Don’t spend too much and save some 5s and 10s. Force yourself to keep those, if you can. Also, if you really want to earn a lot of money, here are some four words: WORK YOUR ASS OFF. Nothing beats that shit.

And one more lesson: Larry is just awesome. You might wanna check out his blog; he’s a really nice guy who’s really good at his craft (gotta love his “sketches”) and has this fantastic taste for TV shows and music (he’s a Foo Fighters fan, you guys!).

The lovely Zooey Deschanel and and the dashing Joseph Gordon-Levitt (both of (500 Days of Summer fame) recently covered the classic “What Are You Doing New Year’s Eve?” for HelloGiggles, and you know what… it just gave me the giggles. Seriously. Just check the video and see for yourself! And this music is just perfect for my year-end post… my sort-of year-end post, that is.

Split Posts for 2011… on 2012?

I’d really like to write a lengthy post to cap off this year with, yes, all the top 10 categories and stuff. But I think I should do some split posts instead so I wouldn’t burn my mind out this New Year’s Eve and just enjoy the festivities later. Looking forward to the food, fireworks and loud music later with the entire family!

And with the split posts, I get to have have some topics ready for the first few weeks of January 2012 or so. I’m guessing that going back to school on January 4 would not be that eventful since I don’t know what to expect for that day and for the entire week. It’s just different not getting to see some of my friends as often as I want to. Maybe if something eventful comes up, then I might write it down or shit. But for now, I will probably stick to my plan of showing off my top 10 whatever, and then take it from there.

(Definitely) Capping Off 2011

Well, I had a lot of highs and lows this year, but it has been a fun ride (maybe one of the funnest I’ve ever had so far). This year, some of my worse moments gave me a huge slap to the face, and tell me to do less thinking and more doing—something I have been working on for years, swear to God—and, well, working hard while keeping your feet on the ground. What about the other worse moments? They just suck. And what about the the best moments? Well, the best moments definitely remind me that even if the world sucks sometimes, there will always be good things and good people that will give you the thrill and hope in this world. (One example of such good thing is the Foo Fighters’ recent album “Wasting Light”, which is definitely my favorite album this year! And oh… more on my “best of 2011 in music” later.)

Also, this year reminded me more than ever about the greatest piece of advice anyone has given to me: “meet new friends, but keep the old ones.” At the end of the day, I would still wish about being with the best person in the world with no tension whatsoever, but there is definitely nothing wrong with hanging out with new friends, while reconnecting with the old ones slowly but surely. (More on the origin of that advice and “the best person in the world” later.)

Oh, shit… I still wrote a lengthy post! Sorry about that. I just had a lot of things to say, as always. Anyway, I hope that at some point next year, there will be at least one turning point to the best. And oh, that planning and letting-it-be shit I’ve been doing nowadays may bring me to that turning point or to chaotic shit… I don’t even know, but I will be definitely prepare myself!

Happy Holidays and Happy 2012, everyone!

This year, I think I have live out my life too much, and I felt once again that I lost my way. So I did less living a little, and started to plan out a little bit, do new routines and all. Both things went back and forth, until last month when I thought “why the fuck shouldn’t I keep both?” I should have done that earlier, but fuck it.

My 2012 Starbucks Planner. FUCK YEAH!

I want to go out. In fact, I need to go out. I need to move my bones a little.

I’ve been asking a few friends if we could meet and hang out somewhere. Maybe I could treat them for some movie time or a dine-out. I really don’t know… I just need to go out and live a little. I just hope I will be able to go out with at least one friend. I think I already asked out two or more…

(sighs) Oh well. That’s some little problem I’d like to share in here. With this sharing, I’m hoping I could get a resolve or something. But for now, I’m bumming out with some Modern Family and some of my mom’s special buko pandan. That’s the stuff. I swear that my mom’s buko pandan = best in the world.

And oh, maybe you would like to go out with me? Maybe? Maybe not? I’m such a fucking loser. Damn it.

#BestInTheWorld. Forreals.

“Best in the World” shirt for WWE’s CM Punk

Like I mentioned before (on my [nth] first blog post), I’m a huge pro wrestling fan. And that’s evident on some of the merchandise that I have – notably the shirts that I have. I have the classic Austin 3:16 shirt, and I even have an Undertaker shirt that I bought around 2006 (although I don’t get to use it anymore it’s, um, too large [I don't have a sense of style back then when I bought it]).

And this soon-to-be-classic CM Punk t-shirt is definitely on top of my wrestling-related wishlist. Lightning bolts, flag motif, and the fact that is CM Punk’s… #besintheworld.

Never gets old for music fans. WANT.

Apple iPod Classic

I really love listening to music, so when I bought my first Apple product in the iPod Nano (3rd gen) in Singapore, it was such a blessing in my 2007 to the point that I’m still using the thing until now. It’s such a lifesaver and a companion, too.

But there’s nothing with wanting more since… come on, it is my wishlist. And with wanting more, I want more storage. And since I’m more of a music guy, why not want the classic iPod? I think I will be able to put almost every music that I have on the player.

Message to Siri: "You're such a bitch." Siri: "I understand."

Apple iPhone 4S

“Why do you still want an iPhone if I already want an iPod Classic?”, you might have asked. Well, I’m after the camera functions like FaceTime, the sleek interface and all, the Tweetdeck and Facebook apps on it for on-the-go updating… and Siri. Yep. Greedy bastard.

This baby has Dolby f'n speakers. INSANE.

Lenovo IdeaPad Z460

I haven’t really thought of having a MacBook for now… this is the laptop that I want. Kick-ass specs (Dolby stereo!!!)  and a reasonable price? I’m in (when I get to earn that much dough)!

In order for me to learn how to play guitar properly, I need a new one. Yep.

An acoustic or acoustic-electric guitar

Any brand will do, as long as the sound is good (though I might settle for a Martin or a Taylor, perhaps?). And I would know if it sounds good even if I only know a little about playing guitar. And oh, I would love to learn more about guitar-playing… seriously.

2009 Gibson Trini Lopez Standard in Antique Red. I'm such a nerd.

Gibson Trini Lopez Standard in Antique Red (1960s or 2009)

If I were to pursue one of the big things I want to pursue—being able to play guitar and drums and sing, and be in a rock band—and if I were able to earn money that much, I’d definitely buy a Trini Lopez. And I’m not wanting it just because Dave Grohl (of the Foo Fighters/Nirvana/Them Crooked Vultures) loves his Trinis in Antique Red and Pelham Blue (and his variation of it, the DG-335). Apparently, I know why he loves them… of all the guitar demos that I checked on YouTube, its sound is just so perfect for any genre, whether you’d go jazzy or hard rock. It’s just so versatile.

Actually, I have a lot of guitars that I want to have, but this will be a dream come true if I were to have just one Trini (or at least one),

And that is five of the many things that is on my wishlist. Like, really… I have A LOT of wishes, and, well, I’d rather keep the other wishes to myself for now. I just hope all of them will be granted sooner or later. (smiles)