XVII: That Geeky Sudden College Acquaintance

Isn’t it frustrating that you were once the unapproachable, and now you break that shell and be more sociable, now you meet other people who has the same shell you once break? Isn’t it more frustrating that when you were once the unapproachable, and now you do your best to be friendly, you didn’t realize you were sending the wrong signals to whoever you want to befriend (more emphasis if it’s a girl)?

Sure, it is natural to get rejected, and there goes the quote “what goes around, comes around.” But it sucks that it does happen, especially if one is simply being friendly.

I had this short set of conversations with a college mate whom I only got to be acquainted a  term before she graduated. All I can say is that she definitely looks like a geek, and it turned out… she is. But that’s the fun part: we had this fun time talking about our favorite music and TV shows which we have in common. Everything seems to be going well, even if getting close within a term seems like a long shot, until I finally asked for her phone number.

“My boyfriend wouldn’t allow me to give it to you. Sorry,” she said.

I was fine with it, really… only for me to realize that it was our last conversation ever. I cannot even see a single reply of my offline messages. I don’t know what caused the clusterfuck: maybe her boyfriend noticed that we were getting close, or maybe the girl may have realized that I was “trying too hard” to being sociable and all. Overall, I’m just assuming yet again.

“Trying is having the intention to fail.” 
- Sydney Fife (Jason Segel), I Love You Man 

With Sydney Fife’s quote about trying, it etched in my mind, and I really… do my best to avoid telling “I will try.” But now… well, I should just take a break if I’m trying too much without me realizing it.

As for that acquaintance, well, donning my awesome checkered top, black pants and Zoo York kicks, I’d like to get this thing out of my chance, and it’s fueled with bitterness:

Geeky College Acquaintance,

If only I befriended you earlier, we might have been good friends by now. But then again, you could have not turned me down when I already approached you. I could still be open for another conversation or whatever though, but for now, I just feel sorry for you.

You might think, “Bitter much?” Yeah. I’m that kind of guy. But I will be all right.

All the best in the world to you, almost-friend.

DW